Visibility

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The desire to be seen–

Selfish or

The most basic human need?

We crave visibility,

Demand to be told we matter,

We’re important…

But are we?

We must be told we’re goddesses,

Amazon warriors,

phoenixes,

queens,

fierce

Would looking inside ourselves not tell us the same?

Are we not born with an innate sense of worth?

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It isn’t enough to simply be seen, noticed, acknowledged

It has to be by the right person–

Mother

Father

Bestie

Lover

Potential Lover

Such a choosy beggar

Woe is me

Forever doomed to dissatisfaction

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Give me the keys to the kingdom and I will never again fear

question

doubt

I will forever know that I am infinite

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“Remember my name”

“Mark my words”

“Watch me do me”

Are my attempts desperate?

or strategic?

Smart career moves?

Maybe just an invisibility complex.

Hate to be seen,

Angry when ignored,

Living paradox.

Grasping at moonbeams

Aiming arrows at constellations

I bathe myself in the illusion

Waltz between blurred lines

Big hair, bright colors

Dark makeup, black and white wardrobe

Preening for selfies, hiding from paparazzi

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Should I hide or take center stage?

Run away or run towards the spotlight?

The stage has been set and now it’s on me

Is it my job to step into the sun

Or–

Should I take my place backstage instead?

The script is locked

The roles are cast

Now, where do I belong?

I suppose I should know already, but I don’t

So I’ll try out some things

Belt out a solo

Bust out a dance routine

Try being the lead–

then try the role of the best friend

Trusting that eventually…

The director will tap me on the shoulder, hand me the script & say,

 

“This is the way,

walk in it”

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XOXO,

CMB

Photo credit: Meredith Bird, Bryce Simon and Nathan/Michelle Lewis

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